WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF::
1. I made a move on you:
2. I kissed you:
3. I lived next door to you:
4. I started smoking:
5. I asked you on a date:
6. I was hospitalized:
7. I ran away from home:
8. I got into a fight and you weren't there?
9. I asked you to have sex?
10. i asked you out?

::WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY::
9. Personality:
10. Eyes:
11. Hair:
12. Body:

::HAVE YOU EVER::
21. Lied to make me feel better?
22. Wanted to kiss me?
23. Wanted to kill me?
24. Broke my heart?
25. Kept something important from me?
26. Wanted to do me?

::WOULD YOU:
38: Be my friend?
39. Kiss me?
40. Makeout with me?
41. Love me?

**1.1 - 1.5**

In the beginning, there was Goth. And Goth was good and the earth was formless and desolate. Everything was engulfed in total darkness and it was a really nice place. Then Goth commanded, "Let there be light" - and light appeared. Then, blinded, Goth screamed, "Too bright! Too bright!" - and Goth separated the light from the darkness and knew there'd been a terrible mistake in creating light. But it was too late. Evening passed and morning came and Goth had three cups of coffee, created sunglasses and sunscreen - that was the first day.


**1.6 - 1.8**

Then Goth commanded, "Let there be a dome to divide the water so my velvet doesn't get wet" - and it was done. So Goth made a dome and it separated the sky from the water below it. Goth dried his velvet and decided the decision to divide water from air was much better than the creation of light. Evening passed and morning came - that was the second day.



**1.9 - 1.13**

Then Goth commanded, "Let the water below the sky come together in one place, so that the land will appear" - and it was done. There was earth and there was sea and Goth was pleased that there was a solid place for dancing and carousing. Goth decided to make the solid stuff pretty and commanded, "Let the earth produce all sorts of plants" - and it was done. So the earth produced weeping willows, hemlock, poppies, lilies, roses, bella donna and daisies. Goth wasn't so pleased with the daisies, but decided to ignore them for the time being. Evening passed and morning came - that was the third day.


**1.14 - 1.19**

Then Goth commanded, "Let a little bit of light, but only a little bit this time, appear in the sky to separate night from day" - and it was done. Tiny sparkling stars shone in the sky and twinkled like club lights. Goth was pleased. Evening passed and morning came - that was the fourth day.



**1.20 - 1.23**

Then Goth commanded, "Let the water be filled with all sorts of living things, and let the air be filled with birds." So Goth created goldfish and Goth's cat spent hours watching them swim back and forth in a little glass bowl. And Goth listened to the crows caw, and was pleased. Evening passed and morning came - that was the fifth day.



**1.24 - 1.31**

And then Goth said, "And now I'll make a human being; it will be like me and will resemble me." So Goth created a human with pale flesh, black hair and long tapered fingernails. Goth gave it black eyeliner and black fingernail polish to play with and the human was pretty. Goth told it, "I'm putting you in charge of my goldfish. Feed them well. And the crows and all the other wild animals. I have provided all kinds of plants and stuff. Aren't I nice?" - and it was done. Goth looked at everything which had been made and was fairly satisfied, except for the whole light thing... Goth really wished the light hadn't happened but it was too late. Evening passed and morning came - that was the sixth day.



**2.1 - 2.4**

And so the whole universe was completed. By the seventh day Goth finished and stopped creating stuff. Goth relaxed, drank some red wine, smoked a clove and listened to the Sisters of Mercy. And that was how the universe was created.



**2.15 - 2.20**

Goth placed the little human in a really nice garden to cultivate and guard it. Goth told the human, "You may not wear the khakis of the tree that gives knowledge of what is preppy and what is not; if you do, you will regret it and I'll be pissed." The little human looked at the khaki tree with indifference and said, "Screw the tree. I'm lonely. Give me a pretty little goth girl."



**2.21 - 2.25**

So Goth slipped some nightshade into the little human's wine and made a little goth girl to keep him company so he would have someone to share his misery and depression with and to have someone to dance and drink with. The goth boy and goth girl were pale and naked, but they weren't embarassed.



**3.1 - 3.3**

Sata

...... And as I sit at my laptop, checking the time, it's 10:28 pm. I'll probably go and grab another Strongbow in a bit, once I've typed out this and gone and spent some time with my parents. As I sit in my most faaavourite gothic dress EVER, feeling happy about the day to come, tomorrow, i.e. Christmas Day, I remind myself of the one Christmas Wish I can never be granted; or at least, not for tomorrow anyways:

I wish I weighed more.

This dress is slightly too big for me, so it goes past my feet and I have to be careful how I walk, plus the fact that the sleeves are slightly too long and baggy, meaning that this dress was made preferably for someone slightly taller (Gaaah I keep using the word "slightly" too much lofl!). It's not an excessive amount, it just means that if I were only a few inches taller, and possibly a few stone bigger (seeing as I'm about 5'1 now, and I weigh 6 and a half stone []), then maybe I might feel more happier in my own skin. But right now I don't =/

Ah well, it doesn't matter too much, I'm happy anyways cos it's Christmas tomorrow!!! So I'm trying to keep my mind entertained on that Also I know no-one's probably gonna bother reading this, I just feel better now, knowing I've got down all my thoughts and worries.

Anywho. Good night all. Enjoy Christmas tomorrow... I know I sure will!

Love,

A woman insecure about her body

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