Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens up your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like 'maybe we should just be friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love. - Neil Gaiman

one.
i hate people that back away from the truth, the fights, the reality. is your passion packed in some sort of suitcase, along with your desire, your spontenaity and your heart? i want you to scream out loud for once in your life, and when i fight with you, fight back. if there is one thing i despise, it's a coward. and you, my dear, are on the verge of losing your balls. if they were such a vital part of you, you would use them.

two.
i have no patience when it comes to people who like to tell me how to live my life. now, i'm a creative person, but i dont know how many more ways i can come up with that tell you quite plainly, to get fucked. i have no volume control, i talk loudly even when i dont realise it, and i love that about me. i'm changing everything about me, my hair, my priorities and my emotions. take it or leave it, i can be whoever i want to be. i'm living my life, big fucking deal. i don't need your permission or your opinion. it's my life, and no one else's, and no one's gonna put me in a box.

three.
i find it terribly difficult to trust. not just you, but anybody. not to sound like everyone else around here, but i've been hurt a fuckload of times and quite honestly, it's nothing new. i won't trust you until you show me that i can, and that will take time and patience, and if you cant handle that, then you will never, ever be able to handle me. anyone that knows me will tell you to run, before you find yourself with no legs. but if you're smart, you won't listen to them, you will do whatever your heart tells you to do, and that, that will open me up to you.

four.
i'm a fucking handful.
i'm a package, i dont come in halves.
and i've got baggage from here to florida.

find me when you think you can handle that.

i want a guy who tells me i'm beautiful, when i've just finished work and my hair is a mess, i smell like tee tree dog shampoo and i don't want to go out, i want to stay in. and he's just fine with that. i want a guy who i can cook breakfast for, in the mornings, and even when i burn the toast and the egg's are runny, he'll eat it all anyway and tell me it was perfect. i want a guy i can sing like an idiot with, dance to the vengaboys or abba with and fall asleep next to without having to have had sex first. i want this guy to look past the bags under my eyes, the shape of my body and scars on my heart, and see me for who i truely am. i want him to know that i'm passionate about so many things and when i want to voice my opinion, i will, and no matter what, he supports me in that. I want a guy that will come to every one of my performances, and even if i mucked up my lines or my entrance or whatever, he says it was the most amzing thing he's ever seen. i want someone that will pick me up when i am down, walk anywhere with me, take me places i have never been. i want someone that will watch a chick flick, because he secretly likes them, anyway. i want him to be interested in books, culture, life, not sitting behind a computer or a video game all day. i want someone that understands that everyone comes with some sort of emotional baggage that effects them each day no matter what, and he can be okay with that. i want someone who realises that smoking and drinking to get drunk, is lame. all in all, i want a mature, sensitive guy. but someone who isn't afraid to watch finding nemo or madagascar, with me (: i want someone to be with me, for me, and nothing else. prince charming, where are you ?