You know I figured I haven't done one of these in ages is it just cause I don't bebo or anything on computer anymore or am I losing touch with my creative preachy side.

I've always liked doing this blog thing cause it's a chance for me to get stuff off my chest and maybe just maybe someone else will get something out of it.

I've entitled this one "This crazy world we live in" Why? I hear you ask well it's simple it is a crazy world we live in. We are all seeking attention we all want to be loved we all want to be remembered, we want our life to have meant something to someone anyone.

Well what has bought this thought pattern up for me. A great tree has fallen Cyril Bradwell one of the greatest men I have ever known and why is it that this ordinary man has such a big effect on so many people, because he cared!!!!! that's right it's that simple he cared!!!! he cared about everyone around him so much that he took the time to looking into the finer details of peoples lives studies,work, whatever was going on for them.

Nothing anyone ever said to Cyril was ever dismissed or poo pooed, he stood up for the little man, and he gave everyone a second third and any extra chances they needed no one was worthless. And for so many people Cyril was something to aspire to be like.

We all want t leave that kind of legacy and yet we keep doing things wrong it's a crazy world because for everyone in this world it is "all about me" I know that each and everyone of you reading this have thought like that in your life time. Simple truth is we need to change that if we want to be remembered loved and wanted. We needed to start being like Cyril but not because he was Cyril but because he lived his life as Jesus did loving his neighbor as he did himself he cared!!!!

My pray for today is that you will care, and because you care in turn you will feel cared for.

Love you all

Wow what a rush, or as Hayden would say "Ampedupidness".

Northern division easter camp was great. The Oranges as a band really managed to pull it together leading up to camp and I think we managed to pull out the best performance of our lives, shot boys and thank you so much for being my support. Now with us doing so well we also have to give most of the credit back to the big man himself, no not Trent but God. Thank you so much God for carring us through the really hard times of that camp.

Now I didn't come on here to brag about the band because we were in no way the focus of the weekend. Outrageous relationships and man did the people of the camp really form some of those. I had a really great time getting to know so many people at that camp who even had the courage to come talk to me so they were more courages than I. great friendships were formed life long ones I hope aswell.

Now with all this relationship stuff came the relationship stuff with God, which as alot of you are aware this is so important the hardest thing is knowing that God can be really hard to hear or more so that determining weather it is him talking to you or not can be next to impossible. So I wanted to give you guys a prayer to help.

I pray for you all that God's voice would be so clear to you that it would be impossible to not hear it. And always I want to pray that you would feel God's love for you you are important you do matter and you were put on this earth for a reason. I pray that because you can now hear Gods voice you would find that purpose and strive so hard for it every day and that none of your time would ever be wasted. I pray so much blessing on your life that it has to overflow to all of those around you.

Love you all heaps and hopefully you northerners invite us back next year aye.

Peace out

To be honest in answer to that question I'm really not sure.

Ok so I'm tired cause works never easy after work I'm constantly having practices and when I'm not practicing all my friends are busy or sick of me cause of the practices, and all this adds to this sense for me that I'm going to die alone. I don't know why but for some reason for my entire life I've always felt lonely even with all my friend around me and a great family I still feel lonely. I'm the youngest of four children all of whom are now married and starting if not finished families my dad now lives overseas with his wife and I'm just me no family of my own. So guess alot of it stems from the fact that I've never had a relationship that's lasted longer than 3 months. Which for me begs the question am I meant to walk the rest of this life by myself.

I know the answer is no cause God has promised me to walk with me the entire way and has even promised to carry me when I'm at my weakest.

However me being as human as I am I constantly tell myself I'm worthless and I never will find someone and I may have to accept that God may have intended a single life for me (but I hope not big guy).

Miles Plummer said something today which has given me back some of my smile. Jeremiah 29:11-13: 11)For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, " plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12) Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13) You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."

I have a hope for a future with God be that what ever he has planned and it's way better than I could ever imagine. I'm still grumpy but this does give me hope again.

Sometimes when life seems to pile up on you and you just can't help but feel the strain of ever single little thing you have to do and you get so angry with everyone cause you wounder how committed to the cause or weather they real understand what's going on. Please remind yourself GOD LOVES YOU and wants good things in your life take time and spend it with him take God out for a date.

Spend time with our father who wants the best for you.

A prayer. I pray that when life seems to be caving in on you and your just not sure what to do you will be drawn closer and closer to God I pray that in the good times you wouldn't lose sight of him but strive even more to spend time with him and be with him. And I pray that when your at your absolute lowest God will show up and carry you through. I pray you will never feel lonely again. In Jesus name I pray

Amen.

Love you all.

Bevan