Your So Special To ME !
I love you my friend !!
You keep me pushing through when I think there is no hope. I can't wait till after Christmas I'll get to spend so much more time with you and my girls.

Forever Loving...


I LOVE You !

You have taught me patience
to rejoice in small gains which others take for granted.
You have taught me tolerance
to accept that your perspective is different
and deserves respect.
You have taught me courage
to fight for you when no one else will.
You have taught me endurance
to go on when I feel I can't any more.
You have taught me humility
to accept when I can't make things better
but can only be here for you.
You have taught me to love
at a deeper level than I ever thought possible.

Here's my letter to you.

Tell me why did you cry, why was that ever so infamous smile upside down when you were alone?
I'm sorry, if I knew. I would've walked right up to you. Pushed my fingers into those cheeks and pushed that smile the right way up. Grabbed your arm, and swung you forward told you to not look back into all that hurt and anger. We would've all done that, we would've all had our hands in your back pushing you into the future every single one of us Nay. EVERYONE OF US !

So what's it like where ever you are? Are you speeding through the air, past planes and satellites? Or are you here beside us, each day whispering words of wisdom playing pranks and singing random songs? Y'know I do expect a reply, lol. One day maybe. Maybe your not really gone, you just kind've had to get out of here. Just lost in fear? Your here but not in the physical if you know what I mean. baa you do. We used to always talk about stuff like that.

Is the weight lifted? Are you happy now? Nobody understands? Your home now mate, right where you wanted to be. Where you belong. We can come see you anytime... You finally came home. Just wish it was in a nicer way... All the pain well that's behind you... Did you find that shiny star?

Y'know what we're going to do when we see each other again. Have a mad movie night like we used to do back in the day. Toni's house, scarey movies. Brendas popcorn... haha ! Maybe not Brendas popcorn but we'll have popcorn, yeah we will. We'll all sit around in our pj's where ever we end up when we pass on just us the old group, reminisce, laugh and tickle each other. Then we'll play chaseys, and the dots on the primary school bottom ash felt girls toilets are BAR.. ahahahaha. Naw ! Remember when we all migrated from maxwell st grass up in the corner, to the steps on central grass when we were in year 6 because we thought we were all big and grown up. Ha ha ha ha !

Thanks Nath, you were an awesome friend right through when we were growing up. You made time for everyone, no matter what. I love that about you, we shared alot of the same beliefs and morals. Ha ha, hmm Dracula yr 6. You'd come and watch us when we were doing rehearsals and give me advice on playing Dracula. You were such a cutie, Gawd love ya. "Go BACK TO NEW ZEALAND, YOU SHEEP SHAGGER" you made me cry, and you came up and cuddled me and apologized I thought you were being serious. So funny. You were such a happy bubbly butt... I just can't imagine you so sad. I know and remember you having some issues when we were growing up, but I didn't think it was cutting you so deep and affecting you into the present? I seen it, just never pushed the button or asked the questions, thought it was none of my business. Should I have asked? Would you have got offended and shut off completely?

Shellys having another baby, Barbies pregnant too and so is Lesley I never thought I'd be seeing them three pregnant so soon. It's gorgeous, we're all growing up & our lives are moving fast. You'd already know. I'm engaged, yes yes I know. FINALLY ! 6 years on... *shoves ring in face* LOOOOOOOOK ! You should be at my wedding when that day comes, you should be. It's not fair.... come back? No I know, that's not possible. Did you see Jades tattoo for you? It's awesome eh, you'd of loved it. I think he misses you alot, no no I know he does. We all do. I looked on my msn chat history, and the last time we spoke was december 12th, about your dream car. You sent me a pic. I tried to re-open the pic but it wouldn't let me.


You can't tease me about STILL liking Darren Hayes (Savage Garden) anymore so ner ner. But I wish you could... and I'd tease you about your country music. Ha ha ha ! Naw....


I was there, I came, I made it. For you...one last time.


memory makes you immortalized...











Your friend

Jade Larsen

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