Okay I've Kept All Of This In For Too Long Now.

Having Your Dad Die When Your 13/14 And Your Lifes Changing And You Need Them More Than Ever Is Not Good.

The Truth Is I Miss You... Always Have And Always Will. My Lifes Changed So Much In The Past Few Years And I Don't Like It At All. Friends Have Drifted, I've Done Some Pretty Bad Things That I'm Not Proud Of And I've Grown Up. I Don't Recognise Myself AnyMore And Not Alot Makes Sence. I Think I Have 2 People That I Know I Can Rely On In Life Now And I Miss The Third... You.!
No Matter What I Did Or What Ever Happened When You Were Alive I Knew I Would Always Have You To Turn To And Ask For Advice And Stuff Like That. And Now Thats Not There. I Need You Back. I Can't Keep Doing What I'm Doing. I've Always Put On A Brave Face And A Show So Everyone Thinks Im Alright And I've Got Pretty Good At It. I'm Still Going With The Promise To Look After Everyone And Make Sure Everyone Lives Their Life As They Would Have With You Here But What About Mine.?
I Don't Smile As Much, I Don't Laugh As Much, And Im Just Not Me.
In The Hard Times We Went Through We Always Got Each Other Through Them, We Were More Than Father And Daughter, We Were Best Friends.!
I Have No-one To Talk to About How I Feel About All Of This Really Because No-one Understands What I'm Feeling Even People That Have Been Through The Same.

My Last Words To You Were " I'll Be Okay" Okay I Lied. I Thought I Would But I'm Not And Never Will Be.
Im Scared I'll Forget You And Forget What We Had But Then I Think About Saying All Of This To You And I Know That Will Never Happen.
So I'd Say I Had A Good Reason To Be The Way I Am.

I'll See You Soon.
Night Night.
Your Still My Dad And I Love You.xxx

ღ What would you do if..

ღ 1.I committed suicide:
ღ 2.I said I loved you:
ღ 3.I kissed you:
ღ 4.I lived next door to you:
ღ 7.I was hospitalized:
ღ 8.I ran away from home and didnt come back:
ღ 9.I got into a fight and you were there:
ღ 10.I died:
ღ 11. if i woz pregnant wid ur babi?
ღ 12.if i sed i neva loved u?
ღ 13.if i woz goin out wid u n cheated?

ღ What do you think about my...
ღ Eyes:
ღ clothes:
ღ self:

ღ Would u eva?...............
ღ love me?
ღ let me kiss u?
ღ watch a movie with me?
ღ be my gf/bf?
ღ tell me u think im cute?
ღ take me home for da nite?
ღ do u think im funie?
ღ do u care about me