Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered, weak and weary
Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore --
While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping,
As of someone gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door.
" 'T is some visitor, " I muttered, "tapping at my chamber door--
Only this and nothing more."

Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December;
And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor.
Eagerly I wished the morrow -- vainly I had sought to borrow
From my books surcease of sorrow -- sorrow for the lost Lenore--
For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore--
Nameless here for evermore.

And the silken, sad, uncertain rustling of each purple curtain
Thrilled me -- filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before:
So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating.
" 'T is some visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door--
Some late visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door--
That it is and nothing more."

Presently my soul grew stronger: hesitating then no longer,
"Sir, " said I, "or Madam, truly your forgiveness I implore:
But the fact is I was napping, and so gently you came rapping,
And so faintly you came tapping, tapping at my chamber door,
That I scarce was sure I heard you"-- here I opened wide the door--
Darkness there and nothing more.

Deep into the darkness peering, long I stood there wondering fearing.
Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before:
But the silence was unbroken, and the stillness gave no token,
And the only word there spoken was the whispered word, "Lenore?"
This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word "Lenore!"--
Merely this and nothing more.

Back into the chamber turning, all my soul within me burning,
Soon again I heard a tapping somewhat louder than before.
"Surely," said I, "surely that is something at my window lattice;
Let me see, then, what thereat is, and this mystery explore--
Let my heart be still a moment and this mystery explore--
'T is the wind an nothing more!"

Open here i flung the shutter, when, with many a flirt and flutter,
In there stepped a stately Raven of the saintly days of yore;
Not the least obeisance made he; not a minute stopped or stayed he;
But, with mien of lord or lady, perched above my chamber door--
Perched upon a bust of Pallas just a bove my chamber door--
Perched, and sat, and nothing more.

Then this ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling,
By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore,
"Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou," I said, "art sure no craven,
Ghastly grim and ancient Raven wandering from the Nightly shore--
Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night's Plutonian shore!"
Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

Much I marveled this ungainly fowl to hear discourse so plainly,
Though its answer little meaning -- little relevancy bore;
For we cannot help agreeing that no living human being
Ever yet was blessed with seeing bird above his chamber door--
Bird or beast upon the sculptured bust above his chamber door,
With such name as "Nevermore."

But the Raven sitting lonely on the placid bust, spoke only
That one word, as if his soul in that one word he did outpoor.
Nothing further then he uttered, not a feather then he fluttered--
Till I scarcely more then muttered, "Other friends have flown before --
On the morrow he will leave me, as my Hopes have flown before."
Then the bird said, "Nevermore."

Startled at the stillness broken by reply so aptly spoken,
"Doubtless," said I, "what it utteres is it only stock and store
Caught from some unhappy master whom unmerciful Disaster
Followed fast and followed faster till his songs one burden bore --
Till the dirges of his Hope the melancholy burden bore
Of 'Never - nevermore.'"

But the Raven still beguiling all my fancy into smiling,
Straight I wheeled a cushioned se

I held the world to you in my outstretched hands,
you spit in my eye, it's not enough.
alone i drowned in time’s cold sands,
you laugh at my pain, it's not enough.

naked im bared to the sun's burning glare,
you turn from my tears, it's not enough.
empty i swing in hells biting wind, hanging from a tree of despair
you cry at my grave, yet still, not enough.

love is a game i always lose,
exposing my heart to the hangmans noose.
in the nights frozen embrace i hide alone,
my body bruised, and broken at every bone,
i dream of life, of love, of you,
yet it is never enough, no mater what i do.
i fight for your gaze, i die for your word,
yet it is never enough, not for your love.

100 things about me....
1. Full Name: Patrick david rocliffe
2. Nicknames: paddy, pads, pat, sweaty mosher, long haired goff, fairy (sian is evil)
3. Birthday: 29 august 1991
4. Place of Birth: oldham
5. Zodiac Sign: Virgo
6. Male or female: ?
7. Grade: 6th form
8. School: Ysgol Dinas Bran
9. Occupation: Student, hobo
10. Residence: bala/cynwyd =(
11. MSN Screen Name: life is what you make of it.... what a load of BOLLOCKS!!!!!!!!! life sux no matter wat you do so live, die, sin, and HAVE FUN!!!
12. Hair Colour: dark brown
13. Hair Length: just past my nipples
14. Eye colour: blue
15. Weight: 70000000000000 tonnes more or less hehe
16. Height: just under 6ft i think
17. Braces? Nope
18. Glasses? yuppy
19. Piercings: left nipple, belly button (top) 3 thru the bottom of my left ear, scaffold thru the top, 4 in my right ear an snakebites
20. Tattoos: 1 so far (it needs finnishing though)
21. Righty or Lefty: right


___Your 'Firsts'___

22. First best friend: cynan
23. First Award: dunno
24. First Sport You Joined: swimming
25. First pet: pudding the best cat EVER
26. First Real Vacation: america i think, wen i was ickle
27. First Concert: fighting with wire i think
28. First Love: sailor jupiter

___ Favourites___

29. Movie: advent children/spirited away/whisper of the heart, american beauty
30. TV programme: .Hack// and sailor moon, HELLSING
31. Colour: PINK!!!!!!
32. Rapper: insane clown posse
33. Band: cradle of filth
34. Song Right Now: cradle - nymphetamine (lezebel deva fix)
35. Friend: rhys, anah, kady, rob, adam, fleur graham, sian, rhi, kat, dale..............................
 ............

36. Sweet: choccy bourbon biccies/millions (bubblygum)
37. Sport to Play: street hockey
38. Restaurant: marroubi's
39. Favourite brand: vans/new rock
40. Store: east of eden/dr hermans/ lady zeps
41. School Subject: art
42. Animal: cats
43. Book: any terry pratchet
44. Magazine: metal hammer/neo
45. Shoes: vans/ new rocks


___Currently___

46. Feeling: my legs itching
47. Single or Taken? taken
48. Have a crush: yep
49. Eating: orios
50. Drinking: nope
51. Typing: elephant poop
52. Online? Yep
53. Listening To: tv
54. Thinking About: elephants, food
55. Wanting To: smoke
56. Watching: famly guy
57. Wearing: nothing!!!!!! (not really)

___Your Future___

58. Want Kids? yep
59. Want to be married? dont mind
60. Careers in Mind: games designer
61. Where do you want to live: JAPAN
62. Car: VW camper van

__Which is Better With The Opposite Sex___

63. Hair colour: funky
64. Hair length: longish
65. Eye colour: anything as long as they got eyes
66. Measurements: 200000000000ft
67. Cute or Sexy: dont mind
68. Lips or Eyes: chickens?
69. Hugs or Kisses: hugs
70. Short or Tall: dont mind
71. Easygoing or serious: dont mind

72. Romantic or Spontaneous: Both
73. Fatty or Skinny: dont mind
74. Sensitive or Loud: dont mind
75. Hook-up or Relationship: Relationship
76. Sweet or Caring: dont mind
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: dont mind

___Have you ever______

78. Kissed a Stranger: well of course
79. Had Alcohol: Yes
80. Smoked: yes
81. Ran Away From Home: yes
82. Broken a bone: no
83. Got an X-ray: yes
84. Been with someone: Yes
85. Broken Someone’s Heart: yep, sowi!!!!!!!!!!
86. Broke Up With Someone: Yes
87. Cried When Someone Died: Yes
88. Cried At School: maybe (yes)

___Do You Believe In___

89. God: ye hes sittin next to me now, no wait thats the cat, oh well
90. Miracles: not really
91. Love At First sight: depends
92. Ghosts: yup
93. Aliens: yup
94. Soul Mates: yup
95. Heaven: dunno
96. Hell: dunno
97. Angels: i am 1!!!!!!!!!
98. Kissing on The First Date: at least hehe
99. Horoscopes: yup

___Answer Truthfully___

100. Is There Someone You Want But You Know You Can't Have? YEP!!!!!!!!!!!!