"I SEE SOMEONE REAL SOMEONE SWEET SOMEONE SENSITIVE ALL THO THEY GIVE THE AGGRESSIVE IMPRESSION I SEE A LIL JOY IN THEIR SMILE I SEE A LIGHT I SEE PURITY."

ND THERES MORE

"I SEE U SCREAMIN OUT JUST FOR SOME LOVE I SEE THAT ALL U WANT IS TO BE HAPPYY I SEE U ON CAM AND I CAN SEE A LIL KID IN U A SIDEKICK DORK LOL I SEE MATURITY AND RESPONSIBILITY I DONT SEE ANYTHING FAKE."

I WAS DOING GOOD
I QUIT MUH WILD SPUR OF DA MOMENT LIFE
FOR DA SIMPLE HOME LIFE
I GOT MUH DREAMS STARTED
I HAD PUT ASIDE MUH REGRETS
I PUSHED OUR LIFE OUT DA WAY FOR MUH NEW ONE
BUT FRUSTRATION BUILT
IT BUILT OVER DAT ONE YEAR
ONE MORE YEAR OF A US IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE
BUT NO
IT WASNT MEANT TO BE
WE WERENT MEANT TO BE
BUT YOU HAD MEH TRAPPED
YOU COMMITED DA PERFECT CRIME
AND STOLE MUH HEART
YOU STOLE MUH SOUL
NOW I WONDER MUH HEAD
SEARCHING FOR DA ANSWER
TO FIX US
BUT CAN WE BE
WHEN IM NOT PERMITTED TO SLEEP CUZ OF UR MEMORIES
I SIT OUTSIDE
I REACH FOR OUR STARS
THEN I REALIZE
NO SHOOTING STAR CAN GRANT MUH WISH
BUT WAT IF
WAT IF I DID HAVE ONE LAST CHANCE
WOULD I REALLY TAKE IT
CUZ WOULD U REALLY LOVE MEH LIKE U DID
CAN U GET PAST THE 10% OF FORGIVENESS
CAN YOU SEE DAT NO ONE IS GOING TO LOVE YOU LIKE I DID
DAT I MISS YOU
I MISS YOUR VOICE
I MISS DA BUTTERFLYS WHEN U SAID MUH NAME
I PUT MUH HEART IN UR HANDS
AND I THINK THERES A PIECE STILL THERE THAT U KEEP
THAT U TAKE OUT ON OCCASION
I SEE IT IN UR EYES
THAT I STILL HAVE SOME OF UR HAPPINESS IN MY HANDS
I ADORE UR CRAZINESS
I LONG FOR U TOUCH
I REACH OUT FOR UR FACE
MUH ARMS FEEL LONELY WIT OUT U IN DEM
HOW CAN I LET U GO
WHEN U WERE MUH AIR
HALF DA REASON MUH HEART BEAT
EVEN IF AMNESIA HIT MEH
U WOULD STILL LINGER INSIDE MEH
CUZ MUH PROMISE IS WAT WOULD KEEP ALIVE
I WOULD NEVER STOP LOVING U
I CANT
I WONT

OK I MUST HAVE WRITTEN AT LEAST 10 GOOD BLOGS 100 EMAILS BUT THEY WERENT GOOD ENOUGH FOR MUH TASTE
SO WHERE DO I START
LETS START FROM A COUPLE MONTHS AGO
I FINALLY CAME BACK TO DA STATES IN JULY
YES FINALLY AWAY FROM JAPAN AND HERE TO STAY IN DA STATES
AFTER A GOOD VISIT WIT MUH FREN IN LA
I CAME HOME...YES I ADMIT IT WASNT ONE OF THE BEST BUT THERE ARE MOMENTS DAT I WILL NEVER FORGET
DEN CAME DA MOMENT I WAS TO SEE MUH LOVE
I WAS SUUUUUUPPPERRRR EXCITED...THE TRIP WAS TO TAKE AT LEAST THREE DAYS BUT AFTER ONLY GETTING TO DA NEXT STATE DA FIRST DAY I WAS DETERMINED TO MAKE IT THE NEXT..SO WITHOUT LOOKING BACK I STARTED OFF...AND I THOT OF ALOT OF THINGS. I THOT OF DA LAST THREE YEARS OF MUH LIFE...I WAS SUPPOSED TO GO TO COLLEGE WIT MUH BEST FREN..BUT I WAS TO AFRAID..I HAD GOTTEN USE TO BEING TAKEN CARE OF..BUT DEN I SEEN DA NEVER ENDING CYCLE OF STAYING WHERE I WAS SO I RAN AWAY TO..DA MARINES!
I DIDNT THINK I COULD MAKE IT BUT IT WAS BETTER DEN STAYING THERE AND GETTING CAUGHT UP WIT EVERYONE ELSE...SO I PUT EVERYTHING I HAD INTO IT...AND WHO KNEW BUT I GRADUATED..WENT TO COMBAT SCHOOL..DEN MOS SCHOOL..AND NEXT THING U KNO I WAS ON MUH WAY TO JAPAN
YES JAPAN..MEH A KID FROM DA MIDDLE OF NOWHERE WAS GOING TO A COUNTRY I NEVER THOT OF GOING TO
SO AFTER A BRIEF VISIT TO DA FAM I WAS OFF ON ONE OF THE BIGGEST CHANGES TO MUH LIFE
AT FIRST BEING IN A NEW COUNTRY WAS A SHOCK A WONDERMENT TO MUH BORING LIFE
DEN IT ALL CAME DOWN
FIRST DA PROBLEMS WIT DA FAM
DEN SCHOOL
DA MILITARY
DA FRENZ
IT TRULY FELT HAS IF DA WORLD WAS ON MUH SHOULDERS THERE WAS CONSTANT PAIN CONSTANT SUFFERING
BUT I KNEW I HAD TO STAY STRONG SOMEWAY
I FOUND A LOST FAITH I MISPLACED AS A CHILD
THINGS WENT UP AND DOWN UP AND DOWN
IT NEVER ENDED
OO I WANTED THIS TO ALL STOP
I WANTED TO JUST WALK AWAY
DEN ONE DAY....
IT CAME..I NEEDED TO STOP WORRYING BOUT EVERYONE..I MEAN ARE DEY REALLY WORRYING BOUT MEH..HALF OF DEM NO
I NEEDED TO STOP LETTING EVERYTHING GET TO MEH
THIS IS MUH LIFE ITS TIME I TAKE CONTROL ..NOW
SO I STOPPED EVERYTHING
I TOOK CONTROL AND I MUST ADMIT I HAVE MADE SOME WRONG CHOICES BUT HERE IS A HUGE TIP TO EVERYONE READING THIS STILL
LIFE IS SIMPLE..YOU MAKE CHOICES AND DONT LOOK BACK
SO DATS WHAT I DID
I MADE CHOICES AND NEVER LOOKED BACK
ITS WORKING
BUT NOW I MUST GO AWAY AGAIN BUT I KNOW IM GOING TO BE OK..CUZ I DONT REGRET DA CHOICE DAT I MADE DAT DAY DAT I MUST FIX
BUT IS IT REALLY FIXING?
OR IS IT ANOTHER LIL CHALLENGE..IM GOING TO TAKE IT AS THUS AND GO FORWARD WITH MUH HEAD HELD HIGH I WILL NOT LOWER MUH HEAD OR EYES FOR I AM NOT WRONG..CUZ IM GOING TO COME BACK A BETTER PERSON..RIGHT NOW THIS IS JUST A PAUSE TO MUH LIFE..DEN ONCE I RETURN I CAN PRESS PLAY AND GO ON WIT WAT I HAVE STARTED THESE PAST FEW WEEKS..A RESTART TO MUH LIFE