Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
Do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
'Cuz it hurst when you disapprove all doing
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spend with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
'Cuz you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect


This song is the best song to explain me and my dads relationship. Me and him used to be so close, until something happend. I don regret what happend, but i do regret losing my friendship with my dad. I try talking to him about stuff, but i never can. It might be because i get scared, or maybe im just afraid of what he will think.

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
Do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
'Cuz it hurst when you disapprove all doing
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

This part of the song is the best. I am growing up and everything was great, but then i did something, and hid from my dad. When i finally told him what i did, life kinda sucked. When i do something that i know my dad disapproves of it does hurt me, because im going behind his back. I try to hard to get that bond me and dad once had, but i can't. My whole family has told me i have changed. Im not the same fun-going person anymore. I used to be really sweet and kind, not perfect just more like other people. Now i stand out with my personality and actions. some of the choices i make are bad choices, and mistakes. I learn from my mistakes sometimes but not always. Sometimes i make the mistake 3-8 times before i finally learn, maybe its because i get the same results each time. Im not going to be good enough for anybody, maybe even not for myself, if i keep being who i am today. I have always tried to change back to how i used to be, and how my family remembered me, but its hard, when i cant even remember who that person was.

Im tired and living life with regrets, and trying to find the right person. Im tired of getting hurt, not just by guys, but also family. Im really excited to be an aunt, and cant wait.
Having friends is great, but having fake ones is just dumb, and part of life.
One thing i really want to change is who i am. Not because im a bad person, because im not who i want to be. I kinda try to hard sometimes to fit in.

Friends are people who care about u, and try to help when ur hurt, upset, or even happy. They are supossed to be there for you, and not stab u in the back.
One thing i absolutely hate is losing a friend over a guy, but for some reason it always happens. A friend i once had was a good friend, i could talk to her about anything, but then i got busy and never got to hangout so are frienship wasnt like before. And now this friend is talking to someone who she knew i liked and told me stuff i didnt want to hear. And all i could say was i hope it works out, only because i didnt want to lose my friendship with the guy, and didnt want to cause drama between me n her. So my goal for this New Year is to make my life better and not depend on friends to be there for me. And to work more bring my english grade up, and to be happy instead of sad or hurt.