for some reason , there is always something that pull`s me back to leave a comment here.. Not sure why really. well I do.. but ya`know.
even though I know you`ll never see any of these comment`s. you`ll never really know how long i`ve missed you , or how well i`m doing. i`m actually doing 5O% better than I was. for once , i`m actually enjoying life. i`m really happy. &` I think I might , just maybe , be starting to allow myself to look at other people in that way again.
aha , you probably don`t care now , nor does anyone who bother`s to read this. but I thought i`d type it out anyway.

what can i say, dude? sorry i could`nt get you to remember me...

Merry Christmas. I would have loved to spend it with you. Too bad we never got that chance.
I hope you`re enjoying yourself from the other side. <3

Haha ~~ well , here I am again ;n; goodness I wish you were here but nevertheless ; just wanted to wish your beautiful soul a Merry Christmas Joon { } huehue ~~ hope heaven is treating you just beautifully .

//feeling ridiculous.
I somewhat don`t think I should keep posting here ~ especially on this specific date. Ey. I guess you just left such an unforgettable dent in my heart. <3
Ew. I`m being nice. Anyway ~ As usual, I miss you.
I wish you were here to see how obsessed i`ve become with Kpop stars. > u < You`d probably get annoyed like my friends. XD
Well ~ I guess thats enough. Aha, i`m going to not post here anymore, except on the one day like a normal person.
C U L8R Radi ~ Chan. <3

(1/2) I know you won't be able to see this. And I know I tell you this in my head everyday/night. But, I miss you. We all miss you. And I know how badly you wanted to say with us, to make us all happy; as much as we wanted to make you happy..
Yesterday bro, was my birthday! I turned 21. c: As you know.. Haha. I spent it quite lonesome.
Usually you and I would do something stupid, and laugh about it because we fucked up badly and ended up in like the other side of the city. xD

(2/2 Ah we were idiots. Fools. Silly bitches. And I miss that. I miss all of that with you. All of it. And as much as I want you back here, so we can do some more of it. I can't have that.. can I? Ah, I feel so weird practically like.. Typing to you, knowing that you aren't even going to reply. Silly, silly me.
Also, on the 24th was Jordan's and my one year anniversary c: We've been together for 36O days, bro. Can you believe that?
But it's all literally thanks to you that I get to have someone like that by my side.. Thank you, Joon. Thank you so much..
I love you man, and I really hope wherever you may be, hell or heaven, if they exist.. It's treating you well. See you soon.

Know you'll never see this.
But I just wanted to say, thank you for everything / you were one of a kind & sort of a goof ball that made me laugh so much to the point it hurt my stomach.
I'm sorry I also caused you some pain - & we joked about it & everything & ! How I teased your name when we first met so long ago.
:'L Haa! & you were suffering from a heartbreak & I ditched y0' ass.. Funny times.

But truly if it wasnt for you - I wouldnt have met Lee he's such a blessing & I just want you to know I promise I'll look after the monkey c: because I know thats what you would have wanted.

Cheezus ; I could just sit here & reminise about the past but I'm tearing up & I look like a creep in the middle of my living room.

This isn't a goodbye Joon ~~
I'm sure I'll meet you again.
But I do miss you ; ♥

Blah. Usually I remember that day. Guess I was keeping myself distracted so well.

I fucking miss you.. ;;n;;
Couples suddenly became disgusting.
I joke about wanting a relationship, but in reality all I want is you.

It's been 4 months.. I really fucking miss you. Seriously..

I miss you so badly... Its just not the same without you.

I really do miss you man.. shit.

This is my goodbye.. As your half.
so. yeah ;; buhbye.

It feels like you`ve been gone forever now..
Gawd. i really miss you baby..
I feel selfish.
saying that i miss you.
saying.. i need you.
Sorry.
Anyway ;; love you.
even if you wont see this,
i`m embarressed to put this.. > <
Hope you`re Resting Peacefully. <3

Now that things have sunk in, I just wanted to leave something for you mate.
A thank you of sorts.

Thank you for being around when you did. Thank you for letting me know you. For not giving up on me when I had a rough time. You've opened my eyes to a lot of things and I couldn't be more thankful. You've left a huge impact here. On me and others - you were a great person.
Sorry we didn't get to know more about each other, but what I did know of you was some of the best qualities known to mankind. And I'm certain I'll be seeing you someday in the future mate.
It's a promise.

M`kay I can finally do this.
I love you, always will. You`re existence left beautiful memories in this heart. You`ll always be apart of it. I wish I could have said some real shizz to you. Its too bad we weren`t able to be together longer. But its okay because the time we did have together, was { p e r f e c t }.
I don`t want to say goodbye, because it doesn`t seem right. So I wont say it.
I`ll just say I miss you.
i Love you &&` i Will Remember You always. ❤

–SETHDAE - Jan 8, 1992 :: July 11, 2012

–;; Joon.. My brother. I will miss you, everyday. Every second, every year without you, will bring such sadness to my life. I can't believe you're gone.. It all happened to soon. We promised to make it the 3-7 years you had left.. I'm so sorry I couldn't make it happen, brother. I'm sorry. I'm sorry they lied to us, I'm sorry I couldn't do much, to keep you standing here beside me. I wish, so badly I could do more for you. Could have done more for you. I wish I could have been made of something like magic, and keep you here.. I miss

you so much. I can't stand the thought you not being here.. Thank you for picking me up and off the streets, and making me someone who I am today. You've always been there for me, you've always been the older brother I've needed. I always held you close, man. I always will, and nothing will change about it. I'll live for you man. I'll live for you, like I promised I would. My brother, you are amazing. Never will be forgotten out of my head. I love you, so much. Good years ahead of us, whether you're really here. Or not.. This isn't a final goodbye, but a see you later. <3
- Lee

Bluurrr. You`re liaakk on my mind 24/7, m`kay. Ahue gawd i`m such a furkin lozerrrface. I got myself grounded so i`m bored AF. &&` Than y`know I miss chu alott. <3
Just thought i`d be all " ;DD " on here. But than again being on mobile &&` all I got too lazy &&` shizz. But still ; Mwuah mwuah mwuah.
// Gawd. Lozerrface-ness. > u <

Hope you`re getting better &&` staying out thee hospital. If not, I hope &&` pray you get well soon. I LOVE YOU. ^^ <3

Hope you`re feeling better soon..
`Cause baby, I feel deprived of all that sweet lovin` you do so well. <3
No rush ; Just get well &&` I miss you.