these are the lyrics to one of my fav. songs written by a very close friend, Mike Escalante. He wrote them after one of his friends committed suicide, and it makes me cry everytime i listen to it....

**Holden Street**
*Mike Escalante*

Looking at your photos is a habit that
I often try to break
Im captured by your smile,
memories,
expressions on your face.
you were a living poem
now scripture
that always speaks to me

people say alot of things
hurtful things
but youre still a queen to me

a queen to me

and i cant help but see your angel wings
that help you fly so high.
wish you had seen them too-
seen through the stony labels
placed on you.
mortal eyes forever shut
have blessed and opened mine;
lessons never told pervade my heart
forever transcend time.

and in a world of weeds
a world of weeds
we look for gardens for the soul
for the soul

and i still live on holden street
still live with songs and dreams
here people pay taxes through honesty
and love for one another
we`ll throw away the mirrors
for oft they lie
they dont show whats on the inside
and god and angels sing our name
sing us through the storm
and every stone thats cast will stop
short of breaking hearts

and if i had a wish id throw it far into a fountain
so you could see the way you are

the way you are
wish you could see the way you are

the way we are
wish we could see the way we are

so i graduated my program thingy today... it's so wierd to think that i don't have to be there anymore.... i've spent the past ten months of my life there, it's so wierd to think that it's not going to be a part of my life anymore.... plus i already miss my friends ;-;
theyve stuck with me through the hardest time of my life, and i love them all so much.... they all really mean a lot to me...... i put a new album of a bunch of west ridge pics so go take a look

I'm officially out of lockdown this Thursday!!!!!! woot woot!! i'm still a bit under my parents control, but for the most part, I have free reign. there are still some people i'm not allowed to be around, but i got permission to see my favoritest person in the world for the first time in forever this weekend, so im way excited speaking of which, this person had better check their account before this weekend >.<
I LEAVE LOCKDOWN THIS THURSDAY!!!!!!!! I've been waiting so long for this..... i never thought the day would come when id finally get to leave that hell hole.....
I graduate high school this friday as well my life is finally somewhat falling back into place.... now it's just a matter of getting back in touch with all my friends..... so far i've only gotten a hold of a few, most of who hate my guts now and never want to talk to me again, but that's okay. I have 40 of the girls with the biggest attitudes in the state backing me up now the benefits of being sent to lockdown with all the druggies and juveniles. For all u people who tried to make my life miserable before, i dare you to try and mess with me now. This isn't a threat, it's a warning. BACK OFF