"In my field of paper flowers, And candy clouds of lullaby, I lie inside myself for hours, And watch my purple sky fly over me!!" --Evenesence

Just a cuteinspiration of life....

I feel like that sometimes...especially when stuff isn't the way i thought it would be... I just want to spend some small moments of imagination.... hmmmmmm, if only!!

You know paper flowers would never die...

Do you ever find yourself getting all ready to do something and being all excited about it...and then all of a sudden reality steps in, and you realize that you can't even do it? Like there is no way you can afford it, or handle it, or even realistically see yourself going through with it.

This is one of the wonderful things that has happened to me yesterday! I was planning this trip to a place i love so much, but have never gotten to go to.(IHOP KC) Then, I was at cell, and we were doing some of the things that i am going to be doing the whole time I'm away...I hated it!!(I'm just so not into praying for signs and wonders on the streets of TO...I just don't know why, but I'm like bored when it starts...I used to love it.) I wanted to leave, and wait 'till they were done and could drive me back...I then began to wonder...if i don't want to be in this for 1 hour then what the heck am i gonna do for 4 days of it?? And REALITY set back in!!

Who was I thinking I was, that I would still want to be there... But, it wasn't my idea, it was God's he clearly spoke to me that I was to drive there this month and that I was to bring art stuff and rebuild my artistic side all over again! So, what the heck was He thinking? Who does the think I am...i guess i am who he thinks i am...in reality...but I suppose I'm just not seeing it right now.

And the money, it's growing every day! It's costing way more than I was planning for, it's constantly exceeding my posabilities. I have the money, it's just that I'm saiving it for school next year. if God's said go and keeps making things work so it's even possible for me to go, then why isn't He making it so that I can afford it? I just really really would love His help in this right now...

It so sucks that I'm not at all excited anymore!! It was so cool and then I remembered the real me...I'm still trying to get there with all that is inme, because I really want to be faithful in going where God says when God says... So I'll keep pressing on.... Even if it sucks...

A waiter asks a man, “May I take your order, sir?”

“Yes,” the man replies. “I’m just wondering, exactly how do you prepare your chickens?”

“Nothing special, sir. We just tell them straight out that they’re going to die.”