Today is sunday the day of rest . The why is the man I love working his ass off. I work mine off yesterday cleaning and organizing by sewing and computer room ( Yes Mary you would be so proud). He can never be still. He just loves thsi property so much and wants it to look nice for us that he has to keep working on it. Pride in ownwership. It does feel nice to own something for once. To finally set roots and not move around and to know this is mine and I cando with it what I want. No one to tell me no except but just wait till we get some more money. Plus if I want to do volunteer work or go somewhere I can without finding out if what someone mother's things or being told I won't have the time. I am learning so much. I am going to start classes this fall for a pharmacy tech. courses so I can get a promation at work to be a provider specialist when a spot comes available. And I a being support 100% by everyone who is telling I can do it. Something I was never told or encourage to do before. So many blessing have come my way . I thank God everyday. I pray that Dave is getting the blessing also and the encouragement he so disared from his mom . Take care

Life is funny. All this week I have been wondering why my life has going down hill sometimes . But then I went to classes to speak up for abuse childern in the court system. My life is not so bad after all. I have been very bless. My kids have been very bless too. They might think it sometimes but they have. But I do owe them alot for putting up with two parents who should have split over 16 years ago. We were going down hill that long ago and I just stay because of low self steem and my illness. I did not know any better. Now why he stay I do not know. Maybe for the kids or becasue he could get what he wanted when he wnated it. But I know now I do not have to put up with someone putting me sown and take the blame for everything. Ilove myself again

March 26, 2008

I wish it would get warmer. For pete sakes I live in Florida . It was 31 degrees this morning . It has to warm up soon. I move back home to get warm. But I am grateful at least it is not 7 degree with a wind chill of - 10 degrees and 10 feet of snow like it is somewhere we won't name. My divorce is finally underway and my best friend Terry is moving in with me this weekend. So what more could I ask for . WARM WEATHER.