Put your music play on shuffle, then answer these questions with the songs

1. How are you feeling today?
Green Day- Jesus of Suburbia.

2. Will you get far in life?
David Bowie- Rebel, Reble.

3. How do your friends see you?
Buzzcocks- Ever Fallen In Love.

4. Will you get married?
Tenatious D- Tribute. (wtf?)

5. What is your best friends theme song?
Underworld- Born Slippy. (Hahaha)

6.What is the story of your life?
Green Day- Poprocks and Coke. (Aww)

7.What is high school like?
Marilyn Manson- This Is Hallowe'en.

8.How can you get ahead in life?
Green Day- She's A Rebel.

9.What is the best thing about your friends?
Trivium- Dying In Your Arms.

10. What is in store for this weekend?
Christina Aguleria vs. Dead or Alive- Dead Or Aguleria. (I'll send this out, it's BRILLIANT!!)

11. To describe your grandparents?
B52s- Love Shack (Eww)

12.How is your life going?
The Cure- The Lullaby.

13.What song will they play at your funeral?
The Clash- Stay Free. (Aww that's cool)

14.How does the world see you?
Green Day- Letterbomb

15. Will you have a happy life?
(I Can't Get No)Satisfaction- The Rolling Stones. (Oh shit! Lol.)

16. What do your friends really think of you?
Cher- Believe (It's ok, I'm gay, I'm allowed to have this song)

17. Do people secretly lust after you?
White Stripes- You've Got Her In Your Pocket.

18.How can i make myself happy?
Offspring- Original Prankster. (lolz)

19.What should you do with your life?
Wednesday 13- I Want You... Dead. (Assassiin it is)

20.Will you ever have children?
Green Day- Wake Me Up When September Ends (R.I.P. OLLIE.. I'LL LOVE YOU ALWAYS </3)

21.What song would you strip too?
Kids In Glass Houses- Give Me What I Want.
"She said I don't like the way you're dressing" (hahah, a quote!)

22.If a man in a van offered you candy, what would you do?
Kids In Glass Houses- Raise Hell (Mega Lolz)

23. What does your mum think of you?
Green Day- St Jimmy.

24. What is your deep dark secret?
David Bowie- Let's Dance (Hahaha)

25. What is your mortal enemys theme song?
Nymphetamine Fix- Cradel Of Filth

26. What is your personality like?
Green Day- American Idiot. (ANIT ESTABLISHMENT!!)

27.Which song will be played at your wedding?
Goldy Looking Chain- Your Mothers Got A Penis (OMFG HAHAHAHAHAHA)

28.What song will be played at your 80th birthday
Pendulum- Slam

29. What are your aspirations?
Muse- Time Is Running Out.

30. What goes through your head when you wake up?
Kraftwerk- The Model

I HATE THIS
THE FACT THAT I KNOW I SHOULDNT LOVE YOU BUT EVEN JUST HEARING YOUR NAME SENDS SHIVERS DOWN MY SPINE AND COVERS MY BODY IN A COLD SWEAT OF WHAT MIGHT HAVE BEEENS.

IM BETTER OFF WITHOUT YOU.

I REALLY AM.


*FRAZZELED*

I WANT OLIVER BACK, TEACH HIM HOW TO WALK, TALK AND SWEAR.


I'M OFF TO CRY, SMOKE AND DRINK A LOT.

.. we're all board of the same old story.
The heartbreak.
The angziety.
The breakdowns and tears.
And to be honest, I'm sick of telling them.

How time progresses is awful.
And how love is supposed to work is terrible.
And how are we supposed to make the next generation when all we've known love is somewhere between a Disney film and a porno.

And how every other relationsip falls apart at the seams.
And you cry and cut and blind yourself with blood.
You're falling to the floor in hysterics.
And you're screaming "What's the point if he doesn't love me?!"

Then you look at yourself in the mirror.
And cry some more, thinking "look at what you reduced me to.
And their name you caved in your leg won't go away.
Even if you tell yourself you want to remember them forever.

I'd rather forget anyone who casued me that much pain.

Think that your life revolves around the constant hugs and kisses.
And the little brush of hands and the clasp of their hands holding on to you.
Try that when this one's 15 hours old.
He clasped my little black tipped finger in one hand.

I looked into my son's eyes, he was mine, my baby.
She was too asleep to care if I held him.
I picked him up, tubes into his nose aswell and held him close.
I thought I'd scare him, the black, the chains, the fluffy hair and eyeliner.

His supported little head in my one blue fingerless stripey glove.
He opened his eyes and looked vacant, and looked like me.
I kissed his forehead, and sat on the bed with him in my arms and his mother.
She came around and looked at us both saying how good we looked.

And in my arms, he stopped moving.
He stopped breathing.
He stopped living.
My baby, died, in my arms, and I will be forever heart broken for the loss of Baby Ollie.

There were lights and sounds.
Machines and crying and tears.
Blood sweat and regrets of that needle.
...
I knew then he was with the angels.


I didn't cut. I couldn't cos he'd know.
He'd think Daddy wasn't ok.
I didn't drink, I didn't smoke, I didn't do anything for hours.
Until I was alone, and I cried to hard to explain.

I went out that night, with friends.
I couldn't dwell on the fact of it.
And his song played, his song that makes me think of his lack of life.
Welcome to the Black Parade, that's where he's headed.

He never loved.
He never laughed.
He never felt.
He only hurt.

So what would have been scars were inked in.
Down my left arm in big black gothic letters.
And little ones underneath reading the dates.
Oliver Jason 14Feb2008 ~ 15Feb2008.

So next time you think you're loosing someone who's close.
Think of this, think no scar will fade forever, it's gonna scar your mind.
And while you still have the chance, love, laugh and feel.
And don't hurt, over someone who doesn't need you.

R.I.P. BABY OLIVER, WE'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.

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