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Total Despair
 
What is this feeling?
A warmth in that space below my heart,
A tingle in my fingers and toes.
The way my breath catches on the sound of his name,
The longing I have to see him again.

I can still taste his lips on mine,
Imagine his hands caressing my skin,
Hear his sweet voice calling me.
There's a word for this sensation,
Won't you give it a name?

This thing that's trapping me, it won't go away.
It's happy and sad all rolled into one,
The touch of summer rain.
Every night with that photo beneath my pillow,
The face that haunts my dreams.

I hear the word but I can't comprehend,
Your words catch on the breeze.
Then it reaches me,
A smile crosses my tortured lips.
Of course, I always knew.

Love? But, no.
This strange longing is not for you to be near,
It's the tang of regret,
That in the end, it wasn't me.
I could not be the one, to plunge that knife.
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