It aint no point to me wakin up, everybodies time I'm takin up,I got nobody and aint a shoulder near,I cant stay here and its colder there,I dont wanna look back cause its gonna hurt,I slice my wrist and its gonna hurt,For me everybody holds a hate,I get backstabbed and everybody holds a stake,theres no roads to take Im in a circled drive,bustin at myself and Im tryna survive,I'll dissapoint you and I will let you down and I aint got much homeboys comin around,you dont understand so dont say you do,I swear I'll put a mothafuckin slug in you,Im the only one the lonely one at home alone loadin a gun thinkin why not?? I got court comin up I stole a truck I got a bitch pregnant and Im broke as fuck,I wanna get high but I got piss test,Im always first name on top of shit list,Get this the witch has made my chest its permanent nightly visiting nest,there aint no clothes that I look good in Im the big red mothafuckin train that couldnt,I got no family I stole they shit,restraining orders and I still wont quit.I hit rock bottom and then I fell in a hole and then I fell through the floor in that hole somemore,Ive been missin for a year nobodies lookin,I got beat down and my shit tooken,I look ahead and all I see is more of the same or this self-inflicted bullet-hole pouring my brain...I dream about cuttin heads off with a shovel,the dreams are gettin serious man think Im in trouble,I dont hold memory for more than an hour Im tired as fuck and Im drained of power,I aint half way there and Im all of time, Im like a crushed lightbulb all out of shine,Ive been around the world but no place is home,I wanna see the other side when I face this crome,Im butt naked Ive been jackin off gettin drunk ,Its my last hours alive who gives a fuck,it dont matter Im doin this shit in the garage,trying to make it easier for them to clean my head splaage,this bitch I loved I hope she finds me,still up in my chair with my thoughts behind me.