Jasmine Kearey Cicero I MissYou <SexyBitchJazz>
"RIP Cicero My Little Angel"
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|RIP CICERO, my baby, my partner, my best friend||232 weeks ago|
|sunday the 30th of November 2008|
when down the yard as usual at 4 o'clock to get cicero in mum went up the field whilst i put a rug on amber (pony i look after at weekends) girl at the yard comes up to me "your mum needs you cicero is hurt in the feild" i walk up the feild to see them standing at the very back of the field, mum is panicing because cicero wont put his leg on the floor so i stayed with him whilst she went and got help. i called the yard manager and step dad and they came down, everyone came up the feild. i think he had been there a while he was getting tired and was very un balenced, mum called the vet and the soonest they could come was 40 minuites, 12 of us it took to hold him up that long, he was in so much pain, it broke my heart hearing his groaning in pain but i was determined to stay strong for him, i stood there talking to him telling him he would be ok and the vet was on there way to come and fix him, we gave him some mix to keep his sugers up and he began to perk up again, he had that twinkle in his eye again, i was relieved as he was back to himself he looked like himself again, the vet came eventually they had to go to the house at the back of are feilds to get to him as he was to far up the feild, everyone stayed by him there was about 15 of us, she gave him 3 painkiller injections so she could get a better look at it, she was a bit conserned that he may hve fractured his leg he couldnt put any weight on it even after the injections, she bandaged it up and got to peices of wood either side to help him walk to a stable so she could x ray, we all tryed to get him to move and he wouldnt everyone encourageing him but he just couldnt move and then someone said do it for jazz, then everyone said it and he managed to do a few steps, i was so happy he could walk again! he was so far up the feild we couldnt get him back to the yard it was to far away, so the woman that lives at the back of the feild kindly said we could take down the fence to get him into her stables that were at her house, so that took 10 minuites and we managed to gt him to walk back in, we got him in a stable and gave him a massive feed and the split was taken off so that the x rays could be done i refused to leave him so tood with him while they were done i think he knew that she was trying to help him, she went off and it was 40 minuites before we got the results. the longest 40 minuites of my life i didnt know what to think i just stood there emotionless i didnt know what to think but i just stood there and waited for the vets phone call, i heared my mums phone ring and i herd her go silent then burst into tears, i knew it wasnt good i demanded the phone, she gave it to me and the words she said ive never felt oso helpless in my whole life. "im afriad its not good news." its then i knew what was coming next "cicero has broken his long pastern in 9 different places, the bone is completley shattered, the kindest thing we can do is..." i couldnt listen any longer i new what she was going to say, i just fell to the floor and ran out the stable screaming and crying i didnt know what to do , he didnt deserve this at all, i just stood there crying for so long i kept saying to myself i want to wake up now i want to wake up but it wasnt happening. i went back in the stable to spend the last half an hour with my horse it was the most heart wrenching half an hour of my life, he was in so much pain his breathing was so heavy he was trying so hard to stay up but he was falling over but he stayed there for me he was so brave, she came back and i just didnt know what to do i knew this was the end but i just kept thinking i wish i didnt turn him out today if only i didnt this wouldnt be happening she gave him a huge dose of bute so we could get him in the feild as the owner of the house didnt want it done in the stable, leading him into the feild was so horrible to know thats were he was going to breathe his last breath to see his last sights, i let everyone that wanted to say goodbye to him as he was much loved by everyone that knew him. it was a huge struggle for him to walk into the feild but he did it. For me. she stuck the catater in his neck and suddenly the dream became reality she gave him the injection and he started to go all wobbeley, his legs buckeled and i just broke into tears all i could say was "im so sorry c, im so sorry" i didnt know what to do i couldnt believe i let someone kill my horse. right before my eyes i sat there on the floor i felt so helpless i knew he was going i just talked to him and told him everything he gasped and i knew he was gone. i just sat there i put my hand in my pocket and relised i hadnt given him the last mint i had i sat there for an hour, i didnt want to leave him ever. i just sat thinking for ages, i didnt know what to do, i then had to go and it was the hardest goodbye ever. cicero had been my rock threw everything he had helped me so much with all my problems i just wished there was someway i could of helped him the one time he asked for my help . im proud of how brave my little boy was that night how he walked all those steps im sure he did it for me my brave brave little man. cicero is the most talented most loving horse i ever knew, he taught me how to ride, we went threw everything together, he gave so much and had so much more to give i just wish this hadnt happened to him, i gave 110% all the time and so did he, so why is it us that gets punished. we had are first away show planned, 1st 1metre10 class planned i love you so much cicero my bestest friend always i will never forget you ever, youve left hoof prints on so many peoples hearts, thank you for being you im just sorry there was nothing i could do
|posted by Jasmine Kearey Cicero I MissYou|
|azz, thats just heartbreaking, im so so sorry, it was so sudden i couldn't believe, i was liek no i've got the wrong rider and horse here. Im so sorry Jazz I dont think theres anything else i can say.|
|im so sorry Jazz i thought the same as lucy. when georgie told me n msn its sad i know but i thought it was one of those spam things.|
Im so sorry hun i just dont know what to say.,
he was the best Horse anyone could have ever had.
R.I.P Cicero <3
|i am so sorry for you Jazz, Cicero was the most stunning horse i had seen pictures & videos of. i bet he was the most wonderful horse to even own. you were so lucky to have him, you should be so proud of him. R.I.P Cicero- you will be missed by the best of people..|
|jazz im so sorry, i cant even begin to understand how your feeling at the moment, you gave everything for this horse, taught him everything he knew im sure he will be forever greatful sweetie. why you? you dont deserve this what so ever, you were up the yard at every given moment spending time with cicero teaching him all that he knew. He was always happy. So much more potential. Look back on all the good memories that you and cicero had together. This actually made me cry reading your story . Jazz you do know if you ever need someone to talk to about anything what so ever im always here for you no matter what. xxx|
| im soo Sorry " Jazz"|
That Story actually bought tears to my eyes.
i had to put my horse down to..because he had colic.
Im Sure Cicero is happy where he is now.
|Jazzz Babes |
What a horrble but heart touchin stroy
You and him were amazing from the day You got him and babeyy you came so far and should be soo proud of what u both actived .. wish i had new sooner
im going to miss his great videos and Amazing picutres of you both
u where a tream ! partnership and bestfriends
its soo sudden and soo werid to know i watched Your video yestodayy too now
imAlways here for youu babes
lovee Youu and mr c sooo much
Rip , big beautiful Boyy !
|i cannot even begin to imagine what you must be feeling like, its so awful, and you should not blame yourself, it could happen to any horse at anytime in the field, it was out of your control. you probably wil disagree wth what im saying, buti always believe that everything happens for a reason, and even though yo heartbroken now. it wiill get easier in time. im so sorry jazz, i hope you feel better soon. and cicero knows you did it for the best, dont doubt that for one minute darling xxxxxxx|
|hi Jazz, |
Im so sorry for you Cicero was truely a super horse, 1 in a million and u wer a very lucky girl.
Im sure he coudn't of done all the walking without you!
This really shouldnt of happened 2 u, happened same day as mary kings so im sure the 2 stars are up ther 2gether.
one hell of a horse!
|Megan Gotts said...||12/2/08|
|Jazz, just by lookin at your progress and pictures i no what that horse meant to you.. i dint think it was u when i found out i was jst thinking no its not her shes wayy too goood and it was ... and this blog made mee cry and i dont cry over mucch... we all love you and ciceroo babeess..i cant believe it man... i just dont no what to say lookin at you display pic i think loook how much life hes got in him it really cnt b him, and i dint wna think it was him.. at least u said wht u said to him and had your last moments with him and that you couldnt be there cuz u were at college or sumit... R.I.P Cicero you were a Superstar xxxx this had made me realise how lucky i am to have horses and to be able to ride them and not find them hurt in the fiield! xxx|
|Cole Pitt said...||12/2/08|
|Oh my bob hunny I can't believe it.|
Ci and you were just amazing together, and I know he thanks you for making his life the best it ever could have been.
But don't regret something that once made you the happiest girl in the world, turning him out that day wasn't your fault, neither was it Ci's.
Rest in peace you brave little man, you were very much loved and still will be forever
xoxoxoxooxox <3 Sorry Jazz. <3
|Hey, u might not know me but ive watched loads of ya vids on youtube and im so sorry to hear about this, the most heartbreaking story ever and the worst thing a rider can even think of has happened to a great rider and such a great horse !|
Im sorry, this story made me cry so much !
Love to you and your family, im sorry !xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
|Laura Thurston X said...||12/2/08|
|thats soo sad it must have been horrible for you. duno what else to say other than i so sorry and it will get better! |
|Tasha Sikyta said...||12/2/08|
|arr rmann that's sooo graphic... if tht's the right word.... well it made me cry ilyy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx|
|Emma X Corrie X said...||12/2/08|
|omg im in tears! i had to leave the room to blow my nose and wipe my eyes and i jus started again this blog im sure has touched many hearts, your story how far youve come with him the poor man 5 yearsss not long enough no where nearrr im so sorry for you and himm i jus cant imagine how you felt and still feel omg im stil in shock i love him and you soo much |
|The TurdMeister said...||12/2/08|
|awh im crying now|
hell watch u from up above be strong he was strong for u
|Im so sorry |
I am so, so, so sorry, he looked like such an amazing horse. I dont even want to imagine what I would do if that happened to my horse
sorry for your lose jazz,, im sure he knew you did everything you could.
|shit thats awful i cant believe that happened it doesnt seem real, jazz im so sorry!!|
He was amazing, well done with him and im sure he will remember you forever, RIP C xxxxx
|Freya Coulson said...||12/2/08|
|this makes me cry! i cannot even beggin to imagine what your going through babe! he will never be forgotton my anyone stay strong hun everyones thinking of you xxxxxxx|
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