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"turn back time"

	growing too fast its such a shame	787 days ago
	whew! havent been here for a while. cant be bother. bebo is getting so boring. everything is getting boring. msn, chatting, bebo etc.... what i find exciting is reading, painting, watching Naruto shippuden (too bad ep 31 havent come out yet or if it has then cant seem to find it) and outing. Havent been hanging with friends in the holiday. guess im busy with work and just need a little me time. So on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday been going out myself and just shop? or walk around. i cant be bother to drag someone along with me to shop and stuff. i guess i dont want to burden them and stuff. Beside i feel better going myself. i can go to shop i want, rest when i want and go wherever i want. Kinokuniya is so amazing. SO many books with so many subjects. You dont find that many in Dymocks, bigw or Angus&Robertson. spent like 3 hours in there yesterday. It was pure heaven. went to romance section, magazine, manga, careers, heatlth, life and style section and just wander around. i was tempted to buy some books but luckily i walk outta there without purchasing anything ^^ tryna resist temptation. got test for textile when i get back to school. cant believe we are in year 12 already. time fly so fast. kids are growing too fast. technology is advancing and i wonder why? why cant kids be kids? why cant the 10 year old or younger stop wearing skirt, putting on makeup, flauting their skin? why cant they play with dolls, with sand? we are drifting away from our old self, trying to blend in with everyone, trying to go with time. if only we could turn back time. today gone by so fast. didnt go out but stayed home. and then before i know it its already 7pm. im one step closer in leaving home, in marrying, in haaving kids, and being independence. And its kinda scary. morning turn to night in a blink of an eye and it makes me think that im wasting my time, and im not prepared. if only if it would stop for just a second or minute or hour. just wish things would slow down, so that i could process it in. Was suppose to go out with friends today to celebrate my late bday party but i cant be bother. its the past. and beside it wouldnt be like celebrating. just going out and have fun. but i guess i wasnt ready to face them. i just to be alone for awhile, until we get back to school. i cant wait for school. although there homework, peer pressure, test etc. i feel so relaxed. feel like myself, feel like i can think. at home i feel like im suffocating. My energy feel drain, i cant think, headache occured and i feel like im wasting away. i guess with all these technology such as the comp, phone etc in my room, the energy just drain outta me. so i been reminiscing the past and thinking of the future. i think i know what i want to do when i leave school. i have some option planned and i hope it will work out. i did some research, thinking and talking with my parent and they agreed and supporting me. but somehow i think they are not. hard to explain. anyway thinking of doing teaching at primary or high school but i probably start with primary. or i could do as a receptionist or something to do with tourism since im studying that at tafe at school. however i also want to do something creative too. like i probably study art at tafe or hairdresser or something where i can work in a practical field. yeah so i guess i need to do some more research and stuff before im really sure. My aim for this term and next year is: START STUDYING, PREPARING, AND DO ALL WORK BEFORE THE DAY IS DUE
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1 Comment:

	Pan said...	787 days ago
	lol true eh. but people told me, if you dont change you dont grow lol pretty sad thing to know... but it true i guesss
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