|hello. i am bored shitless. so i am writing about it |
it's almost christmas... i hate it. last christmas my mum ran my kitten over 2 days before it because it was under the car and she reversed out and it didn't move. he got put down on christmas day. so i hate christmas. i'm the motherfucking grinch. i will steal christmas from the world by runing over everyones cats so they all hate it too and don't want to celebrate it. (: have you ever just taken the time out to watch your hands? it's like.. they are a seperate part of your body.. like they have their own minds.. they are like little mini sidekicks.. that are attached to you. i'm so monstrously bored right now that it's not even funny. i have a million different things on my mind and when i try to think about but one of them, my mind changes and i lose track of what i was thinking about or what i was trying to think about because it's gone and i'm thinking about an entirely different thing. death. that's one of the few things i'm scared of. that and small spiders. death is one of the most scariest things in the whole world because you never know when it's going to happen. be it to you, or to someone you care about. losing your own life isn't as bad as losing someone you care about because losing your own life means that you can't mourn. but losing someone you care about is the worst feeling in the world. though.. when you lose your own life, you may not mourn but others will. unless they hate you. lol. small spiders make me cry. big ones aren't so bad because, for example, if you had a tarantula on your wall and a small one on your wall, you could turn away for five seconds and turn back and the small one could have disappeared. but the tarantula.. if it had moved at all, you could spot it immediately. that's why i like big ones. and that's why small ones make me cry. i had a dream last night. that my mother said i was a pathetic excuse for a daughter. i turned to her and asked why that was, and she said, while almost crying, that it was because she tried her hardest and always tried her hardest to do her best for me but i throw it back in her face. by the time she finished saying that, she was crying and so was i. i walked out of the room crying and all i seen was a real bright white light then i woke up. i woke up crying. it was like a realisation for me that i need to try harder as a daughter... LOL. my cellphone just made a funny noise. it was like... beepbeepbeep BEEEEEEEEEP beep.. sorta. freaked me out abit.. now i don't want to touch it. what if like, all the cellphones in the world were mini transformer things and when they made the beepbeepbeep BEEEEEEEEEP beep noise that was when they were going to transform into mini evil robot things and attack you by jumping up and latching onto your face then sucking the life out of you, diving down your throat, somehow ending up in your brain and controlling you from there.. it's a scary thought to be completely honest. i think i want a new phone. i live in a caravan. it's my own little trailer park..... at my momma's house. "i'm livin' in a trailer park at ma momma's house y'all" sounds pretty.... LOL to me. brooke's gay. i coloured my orange lighter in with blue vivid. i didn't like it so i scratched it off. then, yesterday, like today, i was bored. so i coloured it in with black vivid.. now i don't like it again. i am wearing a cowboy hat. it is my mums cowboy hat. but not for long. because i plan to steal it. i hate pink cellphones. i miss Stacie Mansfield so much. she's my bestest buddy(: we love the m a r i j u a n a. it's good for our health. over and out.
|heh... um.. ahem...||11/4/09|
|on the 7th of october, 1992, a beautiful thing happened.|
Robert James waikari was born.
he grew to be funny, caring, generous, loving, sweet and of course, he was good with the ladies. Robert had time for everyone. always. and when he was speaking to you, you were the only person that mattered.
then, on the 31st of october, 2009, he was sadly taken from us in a terrible accident.
it involved seven teenagers in a van, including Robert, another car with two people in it and a bridge. it was Roberts van. he was not driving, a 16yr old girl was. they crashed head on with the other car, the van flipped and hit the bridge.
there was extreme damage to the van.
Robert and Max Harman were thrown from the car and found in the shallows of the tutaekuri river. another from the van was also thrown from it. she was found injured on the riverbank.
two people were lost in this accident and two were left in hospital.
the two that were lost were Robert and Max.
Rest In Peace guys.
i may not have knwon you Max, but to be a friend of Robbie's, you must've been a good guy.
because Robbie only kicks it with the best. afterall, the best must hang with the best.
Robert, you were my cousin. you ARE my cousin. and you always will be. I love you so much Robbie. you always had time for me, and for everyone.
you had a certain charm to you that made everyone love you. i know i loved you cuz. so goddamn much. ima miss you like crazy. losing you has been hard. and has destroyed ALOT of people. we buried you on the 4th of novmber... you had alot of mates bub. well over 3hundred came to pay their respects. i don't think you could've asked for a better send off. that was amazing. it killed me to watch you lowered but i know you're happy. i know you had a good life. and im just glad i had th priviledge of calling you my cousin. you were and are amazing Robbie.
im going to miss you so goddamn much. there was a mean piss up at yours after your burial oi, you woulda loved it
I LOVE YOU ROBBIE!! GONE BUT NEVER FORGOTTEN! YOU ARE ALWAYS IN MY HEART, THINKING OF YOU CUZ. SEE YOU AGAIN SOON, BUT, UNTIL THEN, PIMP IT UP THERE EH. YOU SKUX. REST IN PEACE! HASTINGS FINEST xxxxxxxxxx
|omegle conversation! fucking funny shit!!||9/29/09|
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|i've been thinking over the past few days. within three days, i've lost my bestfriend, a close friend, and i have people talking about me. all because i chose a boy.i said i'd never let a stupid boy get between us. yet it's exactly what i did. i screwed up so much. my one rule was "mates before dates". i lived by that rule. yet i didn't follow it this time. and it costed me one of the most amazing friendships i've ever had. i have never regreted something so much in my life. this girl was the best thing that has happen to me since i got my barbie rapunzel doll set when i was seven. i have never loved someone so much. she's kind, beautiful, sweet, funny, sensitive and could always make me smile no matter what had happened. she was there for me through some shit that went down and i love her for that. she has always been straight up with me and always been there. and i had to be a dumb bitch and fuck it up by choosing this boy. i never. EVER. wanted this to happen. i knew the consequences yet i was fucking retarded enough to still followthrough with it. nothing is worth losing someone like her. she's someone that only ever comes across once in a life time. and she was my once in a life time someone. but i passed it up. and for what? nothing. i am so fucking sorry.|