Jinnie <Jindeena>

if only i knew then!!!1/14/09
 
?STRANGE FEELLINGS?

Every meeting of our eyes,
Excitement, fascination and surprise,
Discovery,
Tenderness
& Touching.
Squandering every second of every stolen hour,
Whispered conversations and sworn secrets
Replaced love notes and flowers.

Arguments of;
Doubt,
Distrust
& Fears.
Followed by making up with sex and tears,

Questions,
Quarrels
Then
Resentment,
Until at last you didn't care.

We were;
Two bewildered strangers
Standing in the ashes
Of a heart wrenching love affair...
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???12/29/08
 
Please dont fool me
Im almost not here
when i with you dear
and yet your voice is soo soothing
your so amusing yet confusing
and my heartbeats faster with every second im with you
and yet i still am confused
just tell me
so are you fooling with me now
are you fooling with me nowww
cause im about to break downnn
im starting to breathe in more of your lies
and i sit back and pretend its alrite
i just want your love
is that just too much
i just want to believe that your true
but i guess im just a fool for you
and yet i keep on singing the same verse and rhyme
that its okay its alright
just tell me
are you fooling with me noww
are you fooling with me now
cause i just might break downn
because baby my heart is on the edge of destruction
i just wish somehow we could function
and yet i keep on imagining that its all okay
but baby when will i see that day
i get this feeling that you are numb
and i just feel so dumb
is this fair
is this fair
i am fallin in love with despair
someone who doesnt even care
i feel like im almost out of air
but i just wonder is it fair?
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SORRY12/29/08
 
Forgive Me
I'm beginning to lose faith in destiny...
I've fallen in love but the one I love is unreachable...
I tried to work past it and start new relationships, but it isn't fair to them...
There is only one for me, and I can't even have him...
I gave him my heart and I can't replace that love...
I've lost all faith in the powers of love and nothing but his love can bring it back to me...and I know he never will...
Forgive me...I have no heart left to give...it belongs to him...

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i tried12/29/08
 
I tried and gave it my best shot
Really put in all I got
I received being canceled on twice
With the same guy which is not nice
Actually heartbreaking which is not a lie
Hurt me deep and I did cry
Tears run down as disappointment flows
Hope for a guy now just goes
Away in not a likely chance to return
My heart is hurt with a burn
Of pain and resentment of failing again
For someone to come in
And kick it with me and just be happy
Every time it turns out crappy
I am done, game over and I quit
Trying to find love is totally bullshit
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copied from ???3/31/08
 
Too often we don't realize what we have until it's gone.
Too often we wait too late to say " I'm sorry - I was wrong."
Sometimes it seems we hurt the ones we hold dearest to our hearts and we allow foolish things to tear our lives apart.
Far too many times we let unimportant things into our minds and then its usually too late to see what made us blind.
So be sure that you let people know how much they mean to you.
Take that bit of time to say the words before your time is through. Be sure that you appreciate everything you've got and be THANKFUL for the little things in life that mean a lot.
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LIFE1/31/08
 
Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving
safely in an attractive and well preserved body,
but rather to skid in sideways,
chocolate in one hand,
wine in the other,
body thoroughly used up,
totally worn out
and screaming
'WOO HOO what a ride!!!!'
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The Best Advice Ever!!!12/29/07
 
Dont undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others. It is because we are different that each of us is special.

Dont set your goals by what other people deem important. Only you know what is best for you.

Dont take for granted tha things that are closest to your heart. Cling to them as you would your life, for without them life is meaningless.

Dont let your life slip through your fingers by living the past or for the future. By living your life one day at a time, you live ALL the days of your life.

Dont give up when you still have something to give. Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying.

Dont be afraid to admit that you are less than perfect. It is this fragile thread that binds us to eachother.

Dont be afraid to encounter risks. It is by taking chances that we learn to be brave.

Dont shut love out of your life so fast that you forget not only where youve been, but also where you are going.

Dont forget a person's greatest emotional need is to feel appreciated.

Dont be afraid to learn. Knowledge is weightless, a treasure you can always carry easily.

Dont use time or words carelessly. Neither can be retrieved.

Life is not a race, but a journey to be savoured each step of the way.
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How It Was (secret fellings)5/24/07
 
Every meeting of our eyes,
Excitement, fascination and surprise,
Discovery,
Tenderness
& Touching.
Squandering every second of every stolen hour,
Whispered conversations and sworn secrets
Replaced love notes and flowers.

Arguments of;
Doubt,
Distrust
& Fears.
Followed by making up with sex and tears,

Questions,
Quarrels
Then
Resentment,
Until at last you didn't care.

We were;
Two bewildered strangers
Standing in the ashes
Of a heart wrenching love affair...
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