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|Deep within the shadows I creep|
Is there something that I seek?
To find a reason why I live
For in fear of death, it's death I give
Anyone who crosses my way
Won't live to see another day
As long as there are people to kill
The world is completely at my will
Is it I or is it you?
Try to see this from my point of view
Full of bloodlust, full of hate
I never had a choice in fate
Is this darkness, or is it light?
Who can teach me wrong from right?
I'm invincible, with power over sand
You'll know it's the end when I reach out my hand
I'm the Angel of Death so you'd better watch out
I'll kill you all, without a doubt
What can save me from this life I dread?
It's the word that's been scarred on my head
This loneliness that eats me inside
These horror-filled fears that I try to hide
Now the whole world can read what I lost
I was made a weapon, and my life was the cost
My mind is unstable, you may think me a freak
But you'll tremble in fear because I'm so bleak*
I love no one and fight for me only
You wouldn't understand, you've never been lonely
Innocent souls or my demonic mind
Who is the victim of this crime?
Shunned by everyone and feeling this pain
Now do you understand why I'm insane?
Surrounded by darkness, no where to hide
If I fall asleep I'll be eaten from inside
This demon is restless, it's presence I dread
Every full moon it must be fed
Your blood will make for a tasty meal
Is this true aliveness I feel?
Something is missing, something's not right
How could I have lost that fight?
Am I just like him, and him like me?
Is there something that I can't see?
Perhaps there is something more to life
But how can I look past my strife?
Why can't I see it? It's very clear
It's only the aloneness I fear
Is there truly a lesson to learn?
I think my life is in for a turn
For better or worse? I may never know
But I'll have to accept that what will come, will go
Confusion is suffocating me, I'm up to my head
If this keeps up, I might as well be dead
A new reason to live? What might that be?
I'm so tired, so we'll just have to see....
|Arrival at shima island.DAY.1: ugh i knew playing tetris on the 9 hour flight to japan wouldn't be smart, so tiard......one...more..block..nooooo finally we arrive in narita airport. still tiard so i went to the closest vending machine to buy some coffee, my first yen purchase wasted....on funny smelling clear brown liqued going by the name of "boss" drunk it anyway. this also wasn't smart becuse there was a long bus trip through tokyo, owie my tummie.....finally shiba park hotel fancy. i went to heaven after that no i didn't die of bad coffee poisening but went to an am/pm store. all the writing was japanese on the packets so i went for a pork? sandwitch that wasnt really pork, but potato! later i went back to stock up on pocky,crunky and the latest fma manga and got a roll that looked like it had bacon but it tasted......interesting. later we went to a bunch of temples an got some icecream (lovly on a freaking hot day) and then went back to the hotel to prepare for the afternoon tour of tokyo....but nothing could prepare us for......Mr.Shima. me and liss decided to dress up for our first time around tokyo we wore little dresses, leggings and runners yup runners, with dresses(very stylish) little did we know that nobody else dressed up making us look a little foolish, The tour of confusion begins:"Shima is good buddist" sez the small tour guide who probly thinks we're all ignorent foren dorks, this is interesting as me nd liss are sitting near the back of tour-bus no.2, with two obviousy american guys sitting accross from us shitting themselfs laughing (rude)..."shima in english means island so I'm mr.island, but don't call me that call me shima" and as we're going past akinhabara "are there any otaku on this bus? (i'm the only one who puts my hand up)ooh shima is otaku too, i like goast in a shell, if you go to akinhabara there are lots of anime and bidio games, if shima want to buy ps3, shima go to akinhabara, if shima want to buy dvd shima go to akinhabara is bery cheap there"(what kind of asshat wants a ps3?)after a pointles 1 hour boat ride (which most people fell asleep).We arrived at the most awsome shopping place ever! "you have 30mins here then you meet shima at bus behind the temple, not next to the temple but behind the temple" 30MINS MR.SHIMA YOU CRAZY MAN ONLY 30MINS!!!!so me and liss had to run around this wonderful place looking at stuff (but no fma *sob*) the tour finshed after some temple viewing, and driving past 3 massive manga shops*sobX2*......for dinner we went to a rotating sushi resteraunt only me,burton,axel and paul where willing to try it (the others are pansies). i ate three little dishes (two sushi per dish)one having some kind of whole squid on it(i ate it) after that i had some udon noodles. me and liss are sharing room 1890 it took me 10mins to work out how to work the shower. finally a good nights sleep (untill i met mr.hard pillows and his sister mrs.rockbed. and this is only the first day!|
Disneyland oh the horror, DAY.2: Let us rejoice! for we are going to disneyland! but befor that morning ritulal, knowing that this is japan, i got up supa-early knowing that there would be tons on anime to watch. my theory was correct first, the pokemon show featureing a guy wearing a swarve poke-ball suit,then one piece of one-piece......wait a sec SANJI SMOKES?seems that theres a little havoc everywhere! and nami boobs are ALOT bigger, and luffy sounds like a girl?then some yu-gi-oh seto-kaiba sounds awsome. but wait theres more! kombat butler hayate and some kind of japanese goast-busters but in the edo period. after of three hours of anime i got a buffet breakfast, suggsetion to all DO NOT EAT THE OMLETS!!! and the bacon was paper-thin and felt like sand in my mouth....but the juice was good. HOLY-MOLY! disneyland is huge! so big so big so big. and packed! it was our foolish foolish mistake to go on a three-day weekend, like whales in a sardine can. we all go off in groups, me and liss partner up as always, we thought because it was so hot today, we went to adventure-land that had a picture of boat rides on it. little did we know the massive line that awaited us. well not THAT big but it was right under the sun *melt* untill we got in-side. which smelt funny, chlorine and a mystery. after a long wait me and liss boarded little log-boats like the ones at the wild wild west in movie world back home. the ride was acculy a "pirates of the carrabian" ride with boats, fire and freakishly human robots. and a black tunnel that had the sound of rushing water at the end.......oh crap. after that we looked for shade to eat our lunches (we brought our own (i had sandwiches liss had salad)cos the food there was a fortune and a half) we found a empty under-cover place with lots of seats, too good. we finished our lunch then lots of people started coming in then went into a dark room(we where forced by 2 pushy women). we sat down and to our surprize it was a bunch of robotic sing birds and plants and walls? it was entertaining and really cool (the songs where english one being "fever") my fave bird being tha rapping one. now that we where well rested we went to "the hunted mansion" because the line LOOKED short but we where wrong wrong wrong. after 1 hour under the heat we saw how F&%$#@ massive the line was, the park keepers smartly hiding the massiveness with hedges and trees, those crafty japanese fooled us *dammit*. so i pulled out my also very big manga shojo ciao which is about 4cm thick (thats THICK) and read that for an hour. realizing that the line WASNT MOVING we gave up and got an ice cream and ate it in the air conditioned resturant, i was thristy so i waited in line for half an hour..........it was worth it OK? we went to toon town, it was lovey seeing the massive line outside mickys house. so we went to chip'n'dales treehouse oh fun fun. in the tree i spotted a..........ROLLERCOASTER WOOOOOO!!! at the speed of light we came to the coaster the line was short. it felt so good when it was our turn it was hrt and sweet and so damn good. anyhoo toon town was also the home of a giant gift shop *looks at empy wallet* i'll survive. me and liss et the group after that and got dinner (alyssa having to pay for me T.T ) i stole a handfull of spoons cos they looked nice, the group stuck together after that, axel and one of the bucklands i think went on a buzz-lightyear shooting ride and found that it was pretty awsome! while they did that me and liss went to "its a small world" the song will forever haunt me it was creepy as HELL! robotic childran everywhere singing nooooooooo! too..........h..happy *dies* doo-doo-dooooooo-do-do-do-doooooo horifying. WAFFLES yey we (the group) went to the waffle shop A MUST GO PLACE IN D-LAND!! if u dont go there your wasteing your time they where shaped like micky! totemo kawaii desu ne!!! i ate most of alyssa cos i couldnt afford one T.T alass it was near hometime. we where ment to see the fireworks but some retard said it was cancilled ON IT BUSEST DAY!? after MORE gift shopping we went home and from the train station we could see the flashes of fireworks......................fuck we missed 'em. only wen we got home did i realize that my left ankle was swollen AND X-treamly painful so i had to get some ice from the ice-vending machine (i ate half of it)
DAY 3: host families and the mysterious shinkasen lunch.
ahhh the joys of a good shower and my ankles still sore (dammit). i watched more one piece. loving the theme song "crazy rainbow". and so i packd my bag later to find out i would have to drag it up GIANT stairs and i got onto my train to sumita, along tha way (trying to have the full traditional experience) i attemted to eat a train meal which was unsuccessful, it was so manky! i didnt know what was in it (i think there was salsa) green thing filled whith pinky brown paste, some strange vegtable and lots more! and we've arrived at sumita! it was so awquid meeting y family, in the (1HOUR!) car-drive i didnt realize that people in the back seat didnt get seatbelts i hope my host fathers a good driver.....it was silent......too silent..........finally my host sato motomi showed me her fone which had a really hot picture of ed elric on it (this girl has fine taste), seems that her friend hiromi loves fullmetal. at that moment i felt i was going to fit in XD. then her dad talked to me about the river we boath agreed it was big. thank GOD for translators! they have a very nice house small, and the stairs are really really narrow. im livin upstairs in a little room that use to belong to mitsumasa the older brother. its funny he has pink carpet, they showed me around and gave me slippers! i never realized that there was a hole under the kotatsu table when we ate dinner. we ate clams! one of the hardest things to eat with chopsticks ever! thank god host-father warnd me were the penis was (that was close!), my father has the worlds greatest laugh! HAR HAR HAR!!! i wish i recorded it. later that night he got drunk. then i went to sleep. my host sister and her younger sister ikumi is singing in the room next to me, they have nice voices.
DAY 4: teatowls with cats on them
cod sarnit! my ankle is STILL swollen (i hope i didnt break it T.T) mmmmm my host mum sure can cook, rice and stuff is so different from my normal serving of coco-pops or fruity bites. thay stared at me while i ate, i guess cos im stabbing all my food hmmm. they said to get ready to go out (im still in my pjs). and so a long car trip to.....my fellow fma fangirl HIDOMI'S HOUSE! ohh the joy. but it was only to pick her up! "we go to temples now" said father, ohh temples................everyone in the car is asleep apart from me and father guy, hes laughing i'm confused. damn sumita is pretty and the temples are a work of art too, theres so meny of them! and all of them have a cute little store with them awww, there was really cute goldfishes curse customs! maybe i could give one to hidomi as a gift hmmm. hidomi gave me sweets i was so happy! they where like coloured clumps of flavoured sugar. i was so ahamed wen i broke my unbrella (it was lightly raining) so father swapped with me, he loves his photos in an annoying kind of way, after all the templness. we went to a town with a really big mall the cloths were incredable! but i was too shy to ask if i could try some on T.T, and then we walked past a toy store nooooo....must.....have.....cute.....te
ddys! aww. then they took me to a.......wait 4 it!.......A RAMEN SHOP!!! HOORAY!! I'm-so-happy (^.^) the ramen bowls are soo big, wich is good, i could of eaten it all day long (if i could). then they drove me straight to the speech night, along the way mitsumasa called the reseption was really bad, he sounded like one of bebo friend from america hehe (where the hosts and student get to know eachother the student having to make speeches to the hosts and perents). the problem of coming strait there is that i looked VERY casual and every1 was dressed up (roshe looking very dressed up!). i hugged liss as soon as i eaw her XD i remember everyone clapped wen i said i liked pocky and sushi (go me) burton paul and phe's speeches where really good . then hometime......i finally solved what my pillow was stuffed with by cutting a tiny hole in the pillow-case SAWDUST!? crud. tonight i was ment to give my family the gifts i got them tonight but i forgot.......meh
DAY 5: fear the school slippers and the floor toilets!
wakeing up at 6 is so not cool, as always i was fed strange food for breakfast eeeeewwwww natto!!!! i tried to eat it.......ugh, at school motomi kept on leaving me, i was so sad T.T then she came back ^^, i must be so annoying. then we (bayview students) had to do a hello speech in japanese in front of the school, everyone laughed wen i said i hated mc donalds then quietly oooohhed wen i said i loved fma. hehe for lunch i had bento!
to be continued.........................
|I stole this off sam lol||4/20/07|
|*FULL NAME: Wendy ann marie O'Connell|
*NICKNAME: Wendy, wen wen, wendel sailor
*birthday: 13 october dont forget it!
*PLACE OF BIRTH: Portland, austraila
*ZODIAC SIGN: Libra
*MALE OR FEMALE: female
*SCHOOL: Bayview Collage
*RESIDENCE: Portland, i have 2 houses
*HAIR COLOUR: dark brown
*HAIR LENGHT: longish with side fringe
*EYE COLOUR: hazel
*HEIGHT: 170cm tall
*BRACES: getting them soon
*TATOOS: i wish
*RIGHTY OR LEFTY: righty
*FIRST BEST FRIEND: Jasmine
*FIRST AWARD: high jump
*FIRST SPORT YOU JOINED: dancing ballet
*FIRST PET: Ringo the dog
*FIRST REAL VACATION: Bali, indonesia
*FIRST CONCERT: dance concert
*FIRST LOVE: Ed Elric *kidden*
*MOVIE: FMA conqerer of shamballa
*TV PROGRAM: rove live/the side show
*SONG: unbrella, rianna
*FRIEND: can't choose
*SWEETS: chocolate, snickers, skittles
*RESTAURANT: tappen-yaki place in melboune
*BRAND: jay jays
*STORE: in2games and games500
*MAGAZINE: anime insider,nintendo gamer
*SHOES: flipflops and converses
*SINGLE OR TAKEN: single
*EATING: easy Mac
*DRINKING: springvally banana & mango juce
*ONLINE: probly not
*WEARING: fma otaku t-shirt and jeans
*LISTENING TO: radio
*WANT KIDS: yes
*WANT TO BE MARRIED: yes
*CAREERS IN MIND: jap teacher so kids call me sensai!
*WHERE DO U WANT TO LIVE: Japan
*CAR: purple Chevvy
>>WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX<<
(dont really care as long as he cares about me and doesnt smoke)
*HAIR COLOUR: dont care
*EYE COLOUR: any
*MEASUREMENT: taller than me
*CUTE OR SEXY: bit of both
*LIPS OR EYES: eyes
*HUGS OR KISSES: hugs & kisses
*EASY GOING OR SERIOUS: easy going
*ROMANTIC OR SPONTANIOUS: spontanious
*HOOK UP OR RELATIONSHIP: relationship i guess
*FATTY OR SKINNY: in the middle
*TROUBLE MAKER OR A GOODY GOODY: bit of boath
*SWEET OR CARING: careing
*SENSITIVE OR LOUD: bit loud like me
>>HAVE YOU EVER<<
*KISSED A STRANGER: nah
*HAD ALCOHOL: yeh a sip
*DRUGS: NEVER ina 999999 years
*BROKEN A BONE: no
*RAN AWAY FROM HOME: yes
*SMOKED: never ever EVER! rather die!
*CRIED AT SCHOOL: yes
*BROKEN SOMEONES HEART: yeah i think i did
*CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: of course!
>>DO YOU BELIEVE IN<<
*MIRACLES: no errr maybe dunno
*LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: i like a good personallity not looks, but handsomeness is a bonus
*GHOSTS: NO but zombies are a different story
*ALIEN: i know im scerd of dem
*SOUL MATES: YES!
*KISSING ON FIRST DATE: justa little peck on the cheek if it went well
*HOROSCOPES: only the good ones